About Marriage and Stuff

my former housemate in Adelaide, Nadia got married last two weeks, it was a beautiful wedding. A simple Akad Nikah attended by family and a few close friends, very relaxed and laid back...( Geee i wonder if that could ever happen in my family hehehe, there's tons of us, mom's got 9 siblings, not to mention her niece and nephews from her other mothers ( my grandfather have 4 wives whom he remaries when his wife passed away, my grand ma was the forth and last one) whom we are closely tied ( we have very close relationship) but there are also some whom i've never met. You see, when my sister got married, my mom was saying strictly for family and close friends only.. what happen was, the house is too small to occupy the so called family and close friends, some of us have to sit in the porch and kitchen like my beloved Tok engku who came in her caftan, walked in thru the back door that the maid then thought she was an orang gila Hahahahaha okay, maybe because i have a small house la kannn...tak cukup)  


okay back to Nadia's wedding. As i said it was a very nice and simple akad nikah. Nadia's dress was OMG, so cantik !!!! I went to the wedding with my brother and we met Suraja ( who came all the way from adelaide for nadia's wedding). Suraja then came to stay with me for one night.


The day after was the reception, which was held in SACC. Amirul came from Kedah, Rozi came from sungai buloh to my place because we are suppose to have a small get together. Just us the Gang in village, Mak tam was suppose to join but she fall sick and do not want to be disturbed. Beriya iya dia request nak makan ayam kuali bagai, tapi sudahnya dia yang tak muncul. I made the ayam kuali and also prepared some roti arab. Mirul came to pick me and rozi to buy cake for rozi's birthday, hehehe surpriseeee !!!!!  After Maghrib, we went to SACC with Mirul whom stayed at my place senang nak solat magrib and mandi bagai...


Nadia's reception was also beautiful and simple. Her pelamin is so gorgeous !!! Reka timur did it for her. Basically it was such a beautiful wedding. I am so happy that Nadia has finally found her MR right after all that she went through with that previous stupid idiot selfish bastard !!! hahahaha ( yeah, i am cursing alright...please forgive me). 


To Nadia and Azmir, I hope you hold each other close in best or bad times and have trust and faith all the way; 


Happy married life !!! ;)


okay, the happy parts has ended... Sorrry to tell you that.. hehehe well, the next part is not a SAD or tragicall actually. It's just some random speculation people made on me, that i'm NEXT Hahahahaha.... Goshhh these people sangat bagus dan Hebat, they know when i'll be married while i am still clueless abt it... hahahhaha ( hehehe i'm not being uptight about it, i played along actually...saja seronok hehehehe ) So they are saying that, Soonn its my turn, .. very soon its gonna be me... HAHAHAHA i am laughing my ass off, but i did say amin though hehehehe..


Naah, reality wise, Not gonna happen anytime soon. To have a wedding like Nadia's, lagi lah tak termimpi...nak duduk atas pelamin? Me? and ? and who? i'm not being unrealistic, but simply beeing too realistic, first the look, then the size, and then the education background. I don't have problem with all these 3 things because i understand very welll that no matter how high go you in life, when u are a wife, NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE, your husband is your number one! i believe in that....but people out there seems to miss that part. " Tak cantik lah,eeeii gemuk, ehh i ni hanya ada bachelor degree je.. " Don't blame me hehee i speak of my experience ;) so far i havent found any sincere person who  claim that i am a beautiful person or simply accept me as who i am, there will always be something tak kena... and late ly, it my studies...haaihh la, ingat best sangat ke buat PhD ni? hebat sangat ke? cuba buat dulu tgk dan rasa, baru tau, jangan lah mudah terpedaya dgn pandangan masyarakat.. kita bukan nya dewa kalau dah buat PhD pun.. tetap manusia biasa, kerja jadi cikgu gak mengajar anak bangsa kan... ;)


 hehehe... if i follow my shallow and skeptical mind, i dun think there's anyone out there who would do that, i mean marry me. hehehehe kan kan kan?  There was this one time, i went jogging with my mom and bro at the park, there's a wedding photography going on. the bride was bigger than me and the groom was good looking and not as big as the bride and my bro goes "seee , look at her.. she's even bigger than you but she still got married..i've seen a lot of this you know.. " and then i told him " its her jodoh.. mine is not here yet.." with a smile.. and my brother kept quiet after that. 


well, i am not upset being bombarded with marriage question. Being alone all this while has put me in a comfort zone i guess. Long gone the days when i was actually ready to share my life. Now i share my life with my Studies and soon my carrier. i'm happy that i can take care of my parents, be with them every day and night, cook for them and attend to whatever their needs... imagine if i have a husband, would i be able to do this? in a way, I feel blessed because i have all the time in the world to spend with my parents and make them happy... ( and i can't even think of how mylife is gonna be once my parents is no longer in this world...itu ketentuan ALLAH, so kita biarkan ia di tangan ALLAH....) Truthfully said, I havent found the one who can accept me as who i am, what i am and how i function...hahaha can ar say like that? ... i may have think i have found the one ( EX boyfriends not included !!!), may have think that the compatibility is high, but its all in the hand of ALLAH...  I guess I am not that shallow or skeptical after all... maybe some day...MAY BE .... I said May be....maybe there's a little bit of hope somewhere.... MAYBE.... insyallah... amin....