This is the translation of the lyric of Destiny by Kobayashi Takeshi
If I could feel you,
if I could tell you how I feel
It would bring me to tears,
I just remembered that now
The signs from my heart don’t make sense
I laugh at myself for wavering between two extremes
Can’t even keep it consistent
So I let the days pass by freely
Now time starts to move here
So close yet so far, restless as the sea
But if you’re also swimming then we’ll meet at the destined time
This life’s fragility and beauty
Are spoken by interlaced fingers
Even if this world ends
If I remember you, if I feel you more
I’ve always, always known it would bring me to tears
I love you, I love you, with just those words
So close yet so far, my emotions are still restless
But if I hold you, if I feel you more
I’ve always, always known it would bring me to tears
January dah nak habis dah.... the day after tumorrow i dah nak balik adelaide dah.. After four months being here at home, eiiii... Boleh tak kalau tak nak balik? hehehehehehe... Ish No la, mana boleh mcm ni, Kena la balik, rumah pun nak kena attend to jugak, nak siapkan kerja lagi, tunggu la, sikit lagi je boleh balik dah.. insyallah dengan izin Allah... Amin.... Kat sana pun ada life jugak walaupun kat sini pun ada real life, Life kat sana, as a student, nak kena siapkan thesis smua, Bukan ringan amanah yang di sandang. Amanah yang di sandang haruslah di jaga sebaik mungkin. Bukan sikit wang yang di laburkan, ewah.. tetiba semangat patriotik plak hehehehehehe....
January 2010, hehehehehe......
Tak sangka dah tahun 2010, soon tetiba dah 2020...haaaa.. mcm na? masa tu umur dah 40 =) for all you know, tetiba dah umur 40 and still like the same old me...haaaaiii... ok ok .. i will not think about that... the furture is not in my hand. What ever will be, will be, Its the Best that Allah dah letak untuk kita.....Allah knows best.
I am surely gonna miss everything. Rasa mcm nak pi Adelaide for the first time plak hehehehe nostalgia je.. Rindu Mak and Ba and Farhan's teasing smua. Rindu Pingu, Belle,Hitler and Puteh. Meriah hidup ada kucing empat ekor ni. Like human, they have their own personalities. Pingu gayanya macam ni, Belle mcm tu, Hitler macam ni, Puteh macam tu.. interesting... I memang akan miss all of this la.. bila saat saat tension or stress, pegang pingu or Belle and pet them or play with them, hilang stress hehehehe apart from solat jugak laa.
But its okay, i balik Adelaide dgn kawan baruu ( kawan kawan lama dah balik malaysia, yang ada pun tinggal berapa kerat je.. tu pun masing masing pun busy, maklum lah, PhD students semuanya ( kak nita, kak za, Kak zatul, Amirul) kawan baru saya, Encik Nick Canon ku...hehehehe. Yeah, nanti boleh la berkampung kat CC amik gambar sunset, gambar awan, gambar bridge dan mcm mcm lagi, ( huh berangan tak hengat! hehehehehe)
Apa apa pun, i hope and pray for the best,
Pulang ke Adelaide dgn azam dan harapan dan tekad dan semangat yang baru...
Tak nak susah kan orang dan tak nak cari Hal atau cari pasal dgn orang itu yang penting, bukan saja orang di adelaide tapi juga orang di Malaysia, (sudah sudah la tu...dah thn 2010 dah pun ni =)...)
I wrote this song it's not too long
cos' I've been thinking 'bout you
I wrote this song maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you
Well I dont know what you think 'bout me Maybe you think nothing at all But maybe you could just lie to me And we could be in love you see
Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
I wrote this song it's not too long Cos' I'm the one who loves you I wrote this song this can't be wrong I don't wanna smile without you
Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and how I wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me
Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
In everyway you mean more to me
than you'll ever know
girl I'll do my best to show these words are true
and if you'd like to make a song
and be a perfect harmony with me
I'd find the greatest words sing
so we could write our own romance
Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
Jiwang Karat sekejap dgr lagu ni..... wink...wink...ala....setakat jiwang karat sendiri je, ok la kan... hehehehe
Al kisahnya... wanna go to Sungei Wang Plaza, so park kereta kat Times Square. So tengah berjalan nak naik ke ground floor, I saw her... I have been wanting to meet her so much... I grew up with her songs together with Arwah Sudirman's song too.. They are also best freinds.. Hiburan Minggu Ini, Sudirman and Noor's raya special, all her movies, U name it....Smua pun tengok. Siap mintak my Dad record on VCr lagi. Dulu ada la all the VCR now dah rosak and naik fungus dah smua.
I always admire her style and courage. Yeah she's a very good model in the 80's. I have met her once in Terengganu after she got Married to Mr Wan.... ,which is Kak Norzie's uncle. But that was so long ago, i was in standard 5, hehehehe...
I am still her fan now hehehehe and still excited i got to meet her just now hehehehehhe
Me and Noor Kumalasari =)
Credit to Paan ( nasib baik paan bawak camera owhkay hehehehehe)
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Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda yang bermaksud: "Tidak akan masuk syurga siapa yang di dalam hatinya terdapat seberat zarah kesombongan." Maka seseorang berkata: "Bagaimana dengan seseorang yang suka memakai baju dan selipar yang cantik?" Maka berkata Rasulullah: Sesungguhnya Allah itu maha indah dan cinta pada keindahan (maksudnya, pakaian indah tidak selalu bererti kesombongan). Alkibr (kesombongan) itu adalah menolak kebenaran dan memandang rendah remeh orang lain." - (Hadis riwayat Muslim)
Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda yang bermaksud: "Tiga golongan yang tidak ditegur Allah, tidak disucikan, dah tidak diperhatikanNya kelak di hari kiamat, dan mendapat seksa yang pedih iaitu: orang tua yang tetap berzina, penguasa (pemimpin) yang dusta, dan fakir yang sombong." - (Hadis riwayat Muslim) Rasulullah s.a.w dalam sebuah hadisnya bersabda yang bermaksud: "Barangsiapa merasa dirinya besar, atau angkuh dalam berjalan, dia akan berjumpa dengan Allah dalam keadaan Allah murka kepadanya." - (Hadis riwayat Muslim)
AlSurah al-Qashash; ayat 83; Allah S.W.T berfirman yang bermaksud: "Negeri Akhirat itu (kebahagiannya dan keni'matannya) Kami jadikan untuk orang-orang yang tidak menyombongkan diri dan tidak berbuat kerosakan di muka bumi." Surah Luqman; ayat 18; Allah S.W.T berfirman yang bermaksud: "Dan janganlah kamu memalingkan mukamu dari manusia (kerana sombong) dan janganlah berjalan di muka bumi dengan angkuh. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menyukai orang yang sombong lagi membanggakan diri."
I just got back and just got the news... ( why everything is in red ? you hav to read to get the answer =p )
Way to go !!! Congratulations !
SGGS is among the Top 20 schools in Malaysia =)
I am proud to be Georgians ( The ONLY school which requires the girls to wear red track bottom for P.E.. if you wear blue or black..it just doesn't go hehehehe Even i face difficulties to wear blue track bottom in my new school after SGGS =)). The School's national colour is RED. Baju pengawas pun Kain Merah =), Our excercise book is pink in colour to suit the school's national colour. The rumah sukan is Buzz, nigthingale, and apa ntah lagu dua lupa dah...my rumah sukan is BUzz, yang paling corot hehehehe
The school song..
Seniors and juniors all gathered here,
Together we march on without a fear,
Goodwill and happiness we want to spread,
Everyday's a challenge let's go right ahead,
Onwards we move towards the light,
Resolved are we to face the fight,
Giving our best from day to day,
If there's a will, there's always a way,
Around the bends of life we'll have to turn,
Near and far fond thoughts will always burn,
St George's, St George's we'll ever proclaim,
Honour and uphold you forever praise your name,
St George's, St George's we'll always be true,
Our dear St George's Girls' School.
I am strolling down memory lane hehehehe... My aunts, Cousin, sepupu sepapat, anak saudara goes to the same school gak. One of my cousin is now teaching in SGGS. Teringat kwngkawan lama Mickey, Nani, Masreen,Aziani, Ina, Ana Nasyita ( no 1 KRU fan!) all of us selalu pujuk Achek singgah Mc D drive thru and he tak pernah buat, but one day, on the last day of form two, which is the last day of skolah petang, Achek took us to Mc D hehehehehe... Seronok bukan Main smua orang! oh yeah, Datin Norjuma used to be my partner dalam kelas, we sat next to each other and do our project geografi tempatan together, she drag me to tingkat berapa belas kat komtar tu to get Penang Map, i demam masa tu hehehehe, naik bas Achek kul 6.30 pagi every day.. Nasi Goreng Mat Ali ( one of the gerai kat canteen), Donut and soya bean yang sangat sedap ! Aunty jual Ais Krim and Biscuits ( Love letters and biskut inti coklat ). Dalam Freezer box dia ada je Cadbury's ZIP, Me and my cousins slalu beli hehehehe... Tunggu kak yana kat Tunnel lepas balik skolah before naik bas balik rumah =) The teachers there...CIkgu Jancy, Miss Pritam ( this sikh lady who teaches PE and she wears trackies and t shirt everyday.. Hari guru je dia pakai lawa skit...Puan Naimah ( HEM yang strict),Mrs Lim ( cikgu KH old school yang mengajar about 30 years in SGGS. she retired when I was in form 3...Dia la yang ajar buat muffin, sardine roll utk KH hehehehe)
Of course the school dah banyak berubah from then till now... Berubah menjadi yang lebih baik dan lebih baik =)
Oh ya, Not to forget, the school's slogan
AUT VIAM INVENIAM AUT FACIAM!!
which translate to
If There's a will, there's always a way
So, do you get why everything is in RED now? hehehehehe
( everytime balik Penang, special request from me, nak lalu depan SGGS hehehehe.. )
I went to inner suburb of Vietnam today with Farhan and Shahril. Just the 3 of us ( with other tourist as well) to visit Chu Chi Tunnel. What is Chi Chi Tunnel? Well, try check it out here for more infos.. Its really interesting to see the booby traps used by the Viet congs. To see how they actually survived during the war, how they struggle with nothing at all, but they did their best, made their own bombs and also sandals that leave no tracks and the most amazing thing is the tunnel... After visiting the tunnel, we are given the choice to try the riffle at the shooting range.Me, Farhan and Shahril shared some USDs to do this. It's 1 USD per bullet and we wanna try shooting with one shot Gun and a riffle. Boy, it felt good....It's my first time at a shooting range...hehehe... After the shootings, we were brought to a small hut, and we given a meal a'la Viet Cong.. it's ubi kayu and kacang tumbuk with gula... (Yummy! kalau ada sambal ikan bilis hehehehe..ingat nanti balik shah alam, nak pi cari ubi kayu lah...). Later the chu chi tunnel tour was concluded with a 15 minutes documentary about the vietnam war with the U.S.
Made some new frends along the way, I say next to Jason from Melbourne. He's from Kuching but his family migrated when he was young and he grew up in Adelaide. what a small world. hehheehehhe He's from Melbourne Uni doing Medicine and just finished his placement in HBKL.
We also met this couple from Holland where the husband is actually half indonesian and half holland. Cool... And they have been vacationing for the past three months travelling the asian continent.
And there's Philip who's camera batery ran out and we helped to take his photo with the rifle and while shooting with my Olympus and will email him later.
The time in Vietnam is one hour behind Malaysian time.
After 2 hours journey from Chuchi Tunnel back to the city, we had lunch and then ikut Mak mak pi jalan jalan city tgk tgk kedai. I didn't shop much pun. I beli some stuff for my sister je. Rasanya barang untuk dia je yang banyak hehehehe sebab tgk apa pun teringat kat dia je...
A whole lot of photos to be uploaded later when i have time. Sekarang pun boleh ( gigih bawak card reader gi vietnam ni...) but dun feel like it. Hari lain je la...Okay, back to my KERJA kejap before i go to bed.
yeah, I am in Vietnam and all...I am happy to be with my family although my sis and bro in law is not here with us...Vietnam is fine and it's really interesting here although you get pening with the currency and all. hehehehehe
it seems like suddenly i am being hit hard on the head...
it's already 2010 and please dun let history repeated itself..
It's hard to put a fullstop to it, but i will try...
Yeah it's hard...Nobody says its gonna be easy right form the start...But they say its gonna be easy if its the other way round...
I will try... All my best I will try, but I'll leave it to ALLAH because ALLAH KNOWS BEST...
Better get some sleep now coz gonna go on a vietnam tour with Farhan and Shahril esok.
We were about to leave the house to go to Aunty Ainee's hse for dinner at about 7.45 like that when Mak got the SMS.
"Laaaa......Sultan Johor Mangkat..." Says Mak and when looking for my Dad who's outside of the house. I quickly go to the TV room and set the Astro Max to record the Buletin Utama. I dunno how far its tru though coz i didn't know who it came from. (Tak dak pun dalam BUletin Utama till it was officially anounced at 11.25 pm.)
Then Mak gave me her phone for me to read
"Betui kan, i baca... cuba you baca tengok apa ** **** kata.."
So I read it. Confirm dah Mangkat....
In My mind i terbayang muka Tuanku. The face that i grew up looking in Sekolah Kebangsaan Jalan Datuk Palembang, BUkit Baru, Melaka. Sangat takut pada Almarhum Tuanku ketika itu...Tengok gambar pun seram. He was the YDP Agong at that time and the chief Minister in Melaka was Datuk Seri Rahim Thamby Chik. I can still ternampak their gambar on the walls.
I remembered asking my dad what is Agong. And as it rhymes whith Jagung, I ask my dad again, "Agong tu suka makan jagung ka Ba?" while dreaming of the steamed Jagung in Pasar Malam Bukit Baru that Mak will always buy thinking that Agong got his name from the Jagung... Belum masuk sekolah pun masa ni.. hehehehe...
It might sound crazy to some people but, I spent about 8 hours at Rafflesia ( formerly known as Spalova). Getting my hair done before I leave Malaysia. Yes, it's compulsory to get my hair done before leaving as it will make my life easier in Adelaide. Even if u pakai tudung and nobody sees your hair, but still i get it done hehehehehe....
Come to think of it, who will help me cut my hair now that Atie is going back to Malaysia for good in a few weeks. That's why I refuse when Kak Wati wanted to layered my hair so it'll be more stylish.
Ohhh No Kak Wati... Tak de makna nya nak kasi layered itu rambut, potong mcm mushroom je terus. hehehehehe.. so that's what i am having now, Mushroom style which is slightly shorter on one side.hehehehe... Kak Wati la ni punya kerja.... You cant really tell the difference unless u sit in front of a mirror and take a good look at it. But anyway, its okay eventhough its slightly longer hehehehehe.....
Okay, this is not me obviously hehehehehe but the way the hujung rambut is tak sama panjang is similar to mine hehehehe.....
Dalam kita menghadapi ujian, pasti ada jalan keluarnya.
Sebagai langkah pertama cuba fahami dan hayatilah pesanan Nabi Muhammad SAW yang berbunyi, "sebaik-baik ibadah ialah sabar menunggu jalan keluar". Ini bermakna tidak ada satu ujian pun yang akan kekal.
Mana mungkin ada malam yang tidak ada siang, pagi tanpa digantikan dengan petang, mana mungkin banjir berpanjangan dan tidak akan terjadi kemarau berpanjangan. Jika ini kenyataan yang terjadi bermakna Allah tidak pernah tidak adil pada makhluknya. Bagi memperhatikan lagi cinta Allah pada makhluk-Nya dan membuktikan lagi kehebatan Allah Yang Maha Adil maka dibekalkan makhluk-Nya dengan pesanan melalui surah Hud :81 yang berbunyi,
"Bukankah Subuh itu sudah tiba."
Subuh bermakna betapa pun panjangnya malam pekat pasti akan bertemu dengan waktu tamatnya. Oleh iu betapa pun berat dan panjangnya penderitaan yang ditanggung oleh hamba Allah, Dia telah menjelaskan pasti Allah menemukan saat penyembuhan untuk keluar daripada permasalahan itu. Subuh bermakna cahaya fajar bagi orang yang ditimpa kesedihan itu telah menyerlah. Maka pandai-pandailah merasai sapaan dan sentuhan suria pagi, tunggulah panasnya bebola mentari pagi sebagai tanda bahawa kemenangan telah datang dari Yang Maha Berkuasa.
Oleh itu, laluilah kehidupan dengan keyakinan,dan rasailah sentuhan Allah tidak pernah putus kepada kita hamba-Nya. Ini dipastikan dalam janji Allah bahawa Allah tidak pernah mengantuk, tidak pernah penat, berhenti mengurus langit dan bumi serta seluruh isinya. Anggaplah suatu permasalahan itu sebagai seperti seutas tali. Jika tali itu sudah sangat tegang, maka ia akan segera putus. Ertinya jika persoalan itu sudah kritis atau matang, maka tunggu kerana ia pasti akan berhenti dan ditemukan dengan jalan keluar.
Allah akan pastikan setiap kesedihan dan kegembiraan itu menemui penghujungnya. Ini ditegaskan lagi oleh Allah,
"Dan barang siapa yang bertaqwa kepada Allah nescaya Allah akan menjadikan baginya jalan kemudahan dalam urusannya (QS Ath-Thalaq:4).
Ini janji Allah yang sangat pasti, maka bangunkan keyakinan dan panjatkan doa dan kesedihan kepada-Nya, pasti kita akan berasa bahawa kesedihan tidak berpanjangan kerana Allah tidak membenarkan keadaan itu terjadi selagi kita hambanya tidak berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sebab itu Allah menjanjikan,
"Maka, sesungguhnya bersama dengan kesulitan itu ada kemudahan, sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan itu ada kemudahan." (QS Al: Insyirah:5-6)
Dengan syarat kita yakin sepenuhnya bahawa apa yang kita lakukan kerana Allah dan mahu mendapat reda Allah, bukan kerana manusia.
This week is kinda memorable. Yeah its the second week of 2010. Apart from work stories ( wahhhh..mcm mcm kisah ye.. but this blog is NOT dedicated to my work stuff hehehehe so faham faham lah ye...), a lot of interesting stuff happens.
Interesting stuff #1
I had a lunch date with Aznie and Syida =). Both girls were my classmate back in high school. Then, all the three of us went to UiTM segamat for DIA which I didn't hehehehehe... mengelat masuk UiTM shah Alam heheehehe.. I had medical appointments and stuff that time lah...Then sekali lagi buat Degree sama sama in UiTM Shah Alam. So, after a few years tak jumpa, we met again after say... 5 - 6 years apart from keeping in touch on facebook and friendster. It was nice to meet and chat with them. Now I am all updated about my friends both from school and also from degree hehehehehe. Thank you girls for the great lunch =)
Interesting Stuff #2
me and my girls gather up after so long tak gather. These are my besties since DIA and continue to Bacc. Too bad Surya can't join us coz she had to attend a training session in Cyberjaya. Dina with lil Iman, She with lil Ayden, Liana, Azrin and Me meet up at Secret Recipe.Yeah.. dunia dah maju now...ahli gathering pun bertambah hehehehhee... dengan si kecik hehehe... We talked about old stuff, about their babies and all other gurlies stuff. But tak lama coz Liana's hubby and She's hubby dah call nak ajak balik. Apapun, sSANGAT happy to meet you girls. Thanks and luv you girls MUCH !!!! Hopefully, the next time I balik, Liana pula ada new addition and Azrin and Surya plak akan naik pelamin. Me? hehehehe jgn la tanya..
Interesting Stuff #3
Again after sooooooooo the very long time tak jumpa about 6-7 years, I met him again kat wedding Shahrin and Emi in December baru ni. Memang totally nervous when I saw him hehehehe. So me and Dina went to say hi to him. Sembang kejap and yeah thanks to facebook,we got in touch again. Tapi itu cerita sebulan sudah...
Kisah nya, masing masing pun sibuk and since fon numbers pun dah change, so kita exchange la balik. And would be nice to meet and catch up after all this years to see what's on each others' sleeves. Plan punya plan, Time is running short, gedebuk gedebak, Finally, jumpa la jugak walaupun its already late.Lepak kat porch rumah je ditemani Si Belle sementara Mak and Ba on the way balik dari wedding hehehehehe. It good to meet him and catch up. Gelak jugak teringat cerita lama like kisah pi amik Kad Metrik and Kisah 'Abah" hehehehehehe macam macam lagi lah..Actually, bnyk kisah yang kita share dulu.Dari lawak bangang, fail paper, intersession, powerpuff Girls sampai lah kisah sedih masing masing punya hajat tak kesampaian hehehehe... We talked about life and his girlfriend baru.....also feels very much like old time.It's good to meet and catch up. Thank you very much Mr Mushroom for coming sebab kalau tak, entah bila la nak jumpa kan.. kan ..kan...
and having a GALA time scrolling with my also brand new
Muahahahahahaha........ Both to accompany my iMac
( Yeah,I went to Lion city recenty and only purchased a Mouse...hahaha and a keyboard... and a pair of spectical frame...that's all) Baik kan, tak shopping pun
it's already pass midnight.3 minutes to 1 a.m. actually.It's a quiet night.once in a while i can hear my dad's coughing from his room. It hit me straight to the heart.
Thinking of my dad, the number one cheerleader in my life.he is the one who always reminds me to be strong and always do good not only to others but also to myself . "Buat apa la dok penaya diri?" his usual words with his thick penang slang. hehehehe
i dunno why i am kinda emotional suddenly. thinking of what it wil be like without the MAN of my life. What would it be like without him...tak de sapa nak lawan gaduh..heheehe.
"eleh...pakai saja rugged...duit petrol bapak bayar" or "Eleh Pakai je rugged, assignment suruh bapak check"
or "eleh, pakai je rugged, duit mintak kat bapak" He always teases me with these words. It doesn't mean anything as its just our kind of way of bergurau. He didn't mind at all spending for us. He goes "ANYTHING FOR MY KIDS" BUt i felt sad to know that one day, i will still pakai rugged but will not able to 'minta duit' from him anymore because he will not be there anymore. This is a reality that i have to face whether i like it or not. Ya Allah.... apabila tiba harinya, kau kuatkanlah semangatku agar aku dapat menerima segalanya dengan tenang dan tabah. Just thinkingabout it makes me dizzy and starts tearing up...sebak la pulak.. the future's not ours to see.....
I am very close to my dad you see. VERY. even before i was born, my mom predicted that i am a boy so i can teman my dad to go to surau and my sister can teman my mom. But i turn out to be a girl. hehehehe... BUt i did teman my dad everywhere. I cling on to him everywhere he goes since i was young till i masuk form one coz that time, Farhan dah selamat tiba di muka bumi ini hehehehehe. But it didn't end there. During school days, i'd make him do my lukisan of finish my lukisan or he would hrow out ideas on what to do or read my english essay before i submit to the teacher esok. even masuk Uni pun still lagi sometimes.
All my life, he is the man that understand how i work.. I guess that's because he has the instruction manual of me hehehehehe Anak sapa? Anak M.O. ( he is famous with his initial in the organization he used to work with). I think he is one of a kinda Dad where he doesnt get angry even when i failed my papers in fact siap boleh Kawtim lagi to keep it as a secret. BUt then bukan tak kena basuh lepas tu siap la kena dgr M.O kasi lecture free hehehehehe. I think the right word is penyabar kot. coz i pun pernah lost his handphone once.. A brand new one summore.But he kept cool. ( mcm mcm kan karenah anak dia yang sorang ni hehehehehe) Tu tak masuk lagi cerita pasal anak dia yang nombor berapa ntah, call dari adelaide, crying hehehehe ( work stress and personal life stress)
Anak manja Ayah... Yes that me.. My sis too...
I luv my daddy !!!!
Ya Allah, engkau panjang kan lah umur kedua ibu dan bapaku, kurniakanlah kesihatan kepada mereka. Amin...
I'm not surprised.
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out.
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.
I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.
And I know someday that it'll all turn out.
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
Mmmm...
I might have to wait.
I'll never give up.
I guess it's half timing,
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.
And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.
Mmmm...
But somehow I know that it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
They say all's fair.
And in love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.
And I know that we can be so amazing.
And being in your life is gonna change me.
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmm.
And someday I know it'll all turn out.
And I'll work to work it out.
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get,
Than I get, than I get, than I get.
Ohhh!
You know it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.
I just haven't met you yet.
Ohh, promise you, kid, to give so much than I get.
(I said love, love, love, love...)
I just haven't met you yet
I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me
I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)
The day after i arrived from adelaide, while on my way to ampang park
Mak: U tak dak, i tak pi mana pun..Ni la baru nak pi ampang park after so long..
Me : Laaa... ya ka...awat tak pi je ajak farhan.
Mak : You tak dak..
A week ago,
Ba : Ala.. TAk berapa hari je lagi u are going back to adelaide dah... sekejap je...
Me : Erkkk......... ( tak tahan dgr nada sedih tu...)
Soon, I will be going back to adelaide and start living my 'adelaide'life again. Not ready to go yet actually. So hard to leave all these bunch here.The parents, the bro who's job is to tease and bully me twenty four seven, the mischievous cats. Arghhh.... Will be all alone there without these people... Balik adelaide, Nadia tak de, Suzie pun Tak de, Rozi lagi la tak de....Sure sunyi je with out my gurlies buddies.... Yeah, Rozi kata ada la lagi exchange students akan datang. Tapi entahlah.... lightning will not struck twice at the same place...Anyways....
For now, I am so busy running here and there. Lg dekat tarikh nak depart, lagi mcm mcm benda nak kena buat. Well at least now, i have my cats to keep me happy. Balik adelaide esk? Bayang kucing pun tak nampak. Nasib lah Husna, lepas ni no more kucing nak datang manja manja lagi, no more la kucing nak ikut u wverywhere you go, even to the toilet.... hehehehe...
I still have more places to go for my research. To meet the people and organizations involved in my research. Dalam pada tu, sempat pulak kena heret pergi holiday tergezut.tiba tiba je my dad kata dia dah beli tiket pi sini, pi sana.... Dari Bandung, Singapore ke vietnam...lepas ni, simpan passport sampai tahun depan. Dah tak yah gi mana dah, balik adelaide, sila la buat analysis ye cik husna, NO PLAY PLAY ha.. hehehehhehe....
sejak dua menjak tiga menjak ni, i did not get any notification regarding any comments received. So i will only tau about the comment when i bukak my dashboard.
And Just now, ada satu comment. I published it, tapi tak appear di mana mana pun...
I met Puan Ruzita Baah at Nana's Wedding tadi. She saw me and was waving at me. Turn out to be, she's Nana and Nadia's neighbour or something. So, we chat a little and she is so surprised to hear about what's up my sleeves these days...hehehhehehehe. i plak jadi segan nak cerita. She asked about my mom and stuff, and I was thinking, how on earth did she know my mom?
Who's puan RUzita? U see, Puan Ruzita used to be the course coordinator for BBA HRM.I have forgotten during the time we ( me and my mom) went to seek the Faculty of Business Management's Dean for advise before joining FBM. Dr Rokiah was the dean at that time and during our visit, she called over Puan Ruzita, and that's how she met my mom. I was devastated after I met her but tetap jugak masuk FBM buat HRM.
Somehow rather, when I looked back during those days. She was the one who set up the 'fire' in me till i got DL during my first sem doing HRM and the semesters ahead. FUhhh... at that time u can't just forget what she said and makes u feel like, "Tak pe.. aku akan buktikan... tengok la nanti !!!" hehehehehehe Tapi tu cerita zaman tok kadok hehehehe..
Lagi satu cerita zaman tok kadok, during my 4th semester doing HRM, we got Puan Ruzita for our Labour Econs. Oh Boy!!!! I was like soooo bercampur aduk punya feelings. Being a person who's not soo into Econs thingy, what she teach in class makes no sense for me. I failed the first test badly, dapat 20% je over 100. It was soooo bad. And she also expressed her concern over it. I worked hard after that for that subject. Even paid extra attention on the group work with Mai, Fairul and Kak Mimi. Kita wat assigment kat hotel Maya masa tu and Passed my second test. Masa final pulak, alhamdulillah, boleh jawab, but then I only got B- which makes me tak dapat DL that sem, tapi sem lain smua dapat, so u can imagine how the impact is like on me masa tu bila fikir balik hehehehe, .. so frustrated!... I avoided jumpa dia hehehehehe.. MALU!
Then, when I was applying for MBA in UiTM, nak kena minta Lecturer bagi testimonial, selain dari Dr Sarminah, tinggal Puan Ruzita. So, me and Zarith leave it to her for our testimonial. That was the last time I met her sampai lah ke saat kat wedding tadi.
And that's why Puan Ruzita was so surprised to know that what I am doing now is related to Labour econs! ( ater, masuk kelas dia fail first test kan... belajar pun main main masa tu heheehehehehehe)...She's also surprised that I will be joining her in 2012 hehehehehe.
It was nice meeting her again after all these years after all, dia lah yang membakar semangat utk bangkit semula hehehehehehe.
** Baru je semalam dok tgk gambar masa program PDP batch 25 yang Puan RUzita jadi Faci masa tu dgn Puan AInee kat AMpang Pecah. It was a memorable one! hehehehe
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But i know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that i love you so
I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone
I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone
I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So i'm already gone...
Yes, i am already gone...I can't say much coz it seems like I am to be blame for all this or I am just guilty conscious? You can go on telling people anything you want, ALLAH knows best.
BUt this whole thing here is from my part.
Things doesn't seems right since day one. Yeah I am still thinking of the first day it all started. The people who's involved in it. Yeah, the people around you.The people you kept going back for advises.
It seems so hard for you and you took such a long time to find the time and you simply blew it away when you got the chance. Since it's so hard for you to decide, then clearly I am not the one, so why bother? I am not an option for you to choose to fulfill your target or whatever it is that you call. I think you should try and think about others' feelings rather than thinking about you,yourself. Keeping it all to yourself or confessing to your so called best friend will not make things turn out. If you don't take the first step, then you'll not move at all.I don't want to say much coz the last thing i wanna do is to hurt others. You are old enough to think for yourself.
So i think, it's best for you to move on and for me to go so I wouldn't be in your way.
And i want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But i want you to move on
So i'm already gone
Alhamdulillah, I am free from this game i am trapt in all this while. Thank you for letting me go.
A part form sleeping very late last nite ( morning actually ) watching the Eclipse, woke up early on the New Year's morning. It's mak's birthday today so we had the card giving ceremony and stuff hehehe... Then Ba took us out for Breakfast. Special request nak pergi KEDAI MAKANAN RAJU in PJ.
So, lepas Makan in KEDAI MAKANAN RAJU. The telur ikan in this place is giler fresh and Sedap! Besar pulak tu... Well, awal awal tahun baru dah kena saman dgn MPPJ, AISEH! howcome?
Well, the reason for kena saman is...
after dah makan and bayar, we walked back to the car. Mak and Ba walked ahead of me and Farhan. Then Farhan make a suggestion
"kak ngah, tu kedai VCD hindustan sebelah tu.. go la and see kot ada your CD. "
Lupa plak sebelah Raju ada kedai VCD, dulu ada pernah datang cari cerita hindustan aunty darling. So i went in and ask.
YIPPEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ada!!!!!!!!!!!!! siap dgn soundtrack skali !!!!!!!!!!!!
Tetiba nampak Mak and Ba kat dalam kedai tu skali...
So dengan hati yang gembira, kita pun berjalan ke kereta kerana hajat telah tercapai.... Sampai kat kereta, nasib tak baik, Saman telah pun di keluarkan... Tapi tak pe, katanya kalau pi bayar hari isnin ni, cuma akan di kenakan RM 30 sahaja. Tak pa lah, demi ( sila lihat di bawah ....) punya pasal hehehehehehehhe
Weeeehoooooooooooo!!! Dah dapat !
Soundtrack pun ada although campur dgn Dil To Pagal Hai =)
I was changing the bed linen in my room when my mom walked pass by my room. The bed linen looked hedious on my bed as a part of the matress is still showing. Ala, the bedlinent use to fit my old matress which is not that thick. This is the problem when u buy new matress heehehehehe.....
So Mak say she'd give me a new sheet. Yeah... a new single bedsheet alright....
I followed her to the bedlinen cabinet and she opened the drawer and handed me a single bedlinen set with pillow case. It is still in it's original packaging.
"Oh My God, Mak, don't tell me, this thing is as old as me..."
"Yeah.. it is......Take la this one for your katil, I'll look for a matching plain pillow case to go with that." Mak says..
So i took it to my room and started to belek belek the packaging. hujung sini ke hujung sana.Tgk manufacturer dia la and stuff. Then, when i was about to open it,
"Ish.... mcm sayang je nak buka..." I just dun have the heart to bukak the set.
Original Pierre Cardin Bed linen which is nearly 30 years old. Corak pun masih Retro lagi tu....Mak bought it while my dad was studying in the US of A in the end of 1980 till 1983. She bought a lot of other stuff as well, not only the bed linen, other stuff like pinggan Correlle ( yang Pingu bagi pecah 8 bijik hari tu....). Biasalah, beli masa Christmas sale, or warehouse sale. She told us that she used to amik upah type assignment pak Arab and babysit to gain extra money. In fact she told me, my nick name "Love" comes from a Pak Arab who always tease me "Love!!! I love you!!" hehehehehhehe...
As i dun have the heart to bukak the bedlinen set, i gave it back to my mom and said,
"Simpan la balik, Mak... sayang nak bukak... ni vintage ni...heehehehehe"
So i keep it back in the drawer with some other bedlinens yang belum bukak lagi. yang dah guna pulaka, the quality is tip top la. Just imagine, As long as I could remember, Mak had never bought any bedlinen at all since I was young. She may have bought one or two but that's for us coz she thinks we like new age punya design hehehehe, tu pun satu dua je, yang lain smua yang lama.. And Of course her anak anak also gatal tangan and go crazy over Aussino's bedlinens hehehehe, so tu smua sendiri beli hehehehe( ala, ada dua je pun. bukan banyak...).
Most of the bedlinen we are using now are the one that she bought 30 years ago which still look as though they just came out of the packaging. I dunno how long it can last but it look as though it can go for another 30 years hehehehe. My fav is the Sesame Street bedlinen with all the character on it, My sister have one too. Aqeel is using it now, not like his Aunt, still using for her self hehehehehe. The quality simplt amaze me compared to the one we buy nowadays, cepat je luntur and berbulu.
Bak kata pepatah, "Alah membeli, menang memakai...."
* All i hav to do now, is to ganti Mak's correlle yang Pingu bagi pecah 8 bijik hari tu... kena la cari jalan gi Melbourne, pi warehouse Correlle.. Tengok la nanti mcm na =)
